Tulisa felt ''violated'' after her sex tape was made public.
The 'X Factor' judge was completely humiliated when her ex-boyfriend Justin Edwards - aka MC Ultra - leaked a video online of her giving him oral sex, and she is still struggling to recover from the embarrassment of having such an intimate moment shared with the world.
She told Cosmopolitan magazine:''I've got all these people who have seen me with a c**k in my mouth and it was the most humiliating thing ever for me. Then I was being judged for my 'skills' and I'm like, 'Hang on a minute - I was a 19-year-old girl; this was the first person I'd ever even done this with.'
''It was a private moment and it was devastating enough that it was out there in the first place. I felt violated!''
Tulisa, now 24, was also furious when it was suggested to her that she had played a part in releasing the X-rated footage to get publicity for her debut solo single and album.
The 'Young' singer was disgusted by the claims because it goes against everything she stands for as a person and an artist.
The N-Dubz star raged: ''I had people coming up to me and saying, 'Come on, you must have put that out there yourself?' That was the worst part for me; I am not one of those people. It contradicts everything I stand for.
''Nobody seemed to think, 'Oh, my god, this is going to be this really horrific, emotional thing for her.' But to me it was literally the worst possible thing for my career and what I stand for.''
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